My wife died giving birth to our daughter, and I hated that baby from her very first cry. Six weeks later, I walked into her room determined to let her cry herself out, until I saw something tied around her wrist. It was a little red bracelet. I hadn’t put it on her. And under her pillow was my dead wife’s cell phone, powered on.

“I was a coward,” Marina said. “Yes. But I was also a mother. And a mother makes decisions that sometimes no one understands. They told me they could try to save both of us, but that maybe one of us wouldn’t make it. I signed. I asked that if anything got complicated, they save April first.”

A sound escaped my throat. It wasn’t a sob. It was something uglier. Something broken.

“I didn’t do it because I wanted to leave you alone,” she whispered. “I did it because I already loved her. Because you loved her too, even if you can’t feel it right now. Because every night you talked to my belly and she moved when she heard your voice. That girl already knew you, Ignacio.”

April opened her mouth. She didn’t cry. She just made a small sound, like a sigh.

“I bought that little red bracelet in Savannah, remember? In that little shop full of charms, painted trinkets, and handmade dolls. You teased me because I said it was to keep the ‘evil eye’ away. But then you kissed it when you thought I wasn’t looking.”

I covered my face with my hand. I did remember. Marina had haggled with an old woman with white braids in the historic district, while the air smelled of coffee, roasted nuts, and rain on old cobblestones. I had hugged her from behind and she had told me: “Don’t laugh, Ignacio. This girl is going to need all the protection in the world.” I answered: “Well, she has me.”

What a fool. She had had her. And then I had no one.

“I asked my mom that if I was gone and you couldn’t look at her, to wait six weeks. Six weeks, Nacho. Because I once read that at six weeks, babies start to recognize a voice, a shadow, a presence better. And also because at six weeks, the people in the house run out—the visitors, the casseroles, the ‘stay strong’ speeches. That’s when the true loneliness starts.”

I pressed the phone against my forehead.

“I asked her to put the bracelet on her when you were on the verge of losing yourself. My mom knows how to read pain. She learned it with me. And I also asked her to leave my phone under April’s pillow with this alarm. I’m not a ghost, my love. Not yet.”

Marina let out a tiny laugh. That laugh killed me. “Though, if I could pull your ears from where I am, I would have done it already.”

I laughed through my tears. It was horrible and beautiful. The first laugh that had come out of me since the hospital.

April moved restlessly. I picked her up clumsily. She was warm, light, alive. Her head smelled of milk and baby soap. I held her to my chest, and she let her cheek fall against my shirt.

“Don’t call her ‘the girl,’” Marina asked. “Her name is April because I always felt she was going to bring something new. Even if she was born in a storm. Even if it hurt. April is when the ground opens up and everything turns green again.”

I looked at her face. “April,” I said for the first time. The word scraped my tongue. And then it healed it.

The audio continued. “You’re going to want to blame yourself. Don’t. You’re going to want to blame the doctors, my mom, God, me. Do it for a while if you need to. But don’t blame her. She came out fighting, just like I did. And if you’re hearing this at 3:12, it’s because that was the time I heard her cry for the first time. It was also the time I knew she was still alive.”